My largest goal for this game is to maintain my own morale and stay engaged with the game straight through. I have formed the bad habit of becoming extremely apathetic and failing to pull my fair share workwise, be it reading or explaining, after a hot start. Specifically, I have a bad habit of making promises I fail to keep, that I will post when I get home, that I will read X person when I have the time, etc., only to think that it can wait for a time when I'm more enthusiastic about the game. I have paid dearly for this repeatedly and have singlehandedly lost my team the game multiple times with my own laziness.
I think one thing I need to learn is that enthusiasm is something
created
from doing the reading and engaging to begin with, that it's fundamentally a positive cycle. In other words, making the attempt to engage leads to more enthusiasm and engagement, while avoidance leads to more apathy and avoidance. If you at all see me shying away, please call me out and reel me back in.I realize the optimal entry post is to immediately dive in and give reads, however this is something that's extremely important to me and I strongly feel that laying it out at the very start, publicly, is the best way to dedicate myself to it and give me something to point back to. (Admittedly I'm also just very tired, know I can't read tonight, and know I'm therefore already in danger of falling into the cycle, and think this is a good way to ensure that doesn't happen) Catchup starts during my commute tomorrow.
