Titus v. Alisae (endgame)

[Titus]

Titus, did you and Spiffeh discuss any one in particular

I don't think I can answer this without revealing who is not a mason. Why did you ask this?

[Titus]

I never know why people with abilities don’t target people no one can read but with big presences (FL, Ank, etc) but I will let people make their own mistakes

Why are you making strategy requests like this? It feels like rolefishing.

[Sherlock and Watson]

Because gg is confused by the gamestate full of unclear big personalities and was hoping for direction

such as "let's lynch insomnia before he tries to charisma the slot up enough that people ignore the fact he's obvscum"

-S

[Ankamius]

I'm hard-vetoing an insomnia lynch for d2

[Titus]

I'm hard-vetoing an insomnia lynch for d2

Why?

[Titus]

uhhhhh

I don't have 5 locktown reads at this point, I'd have to double check why I was townreading who I was townreading when I went through the thread initially (up to p36)

I threw out all my d1 reads due to one of my stronger townreads flipping scum but I think there might be some stuff to salvage from them

How does insomnia make your top 4?

[Sherlock and Watson]

I know, you and Boon both

You two are gonna make me work for it

I wish I could say I'm looking forward to it but I'm trying to decide if I'll be able to be assed to push it through before marathon weekend is over so I guess you have a few days to fish for the other two scum

-S

[insomnia]

It's Aaron and Chemist

[Alisae]

Honestly I’m not sure I want to live anymore

[Alisae]

Depression just sucks

[Sherlock and Watson]

Alisae please don't say things that makes it hard to know if you're playing as a scum treestump or not but are legitimately concerning in an OOG context?

-S

[Alisae]

This is out of game for now

[Sherlock and Watson]

*hug*

[Sherlock and Watson]

I encourage you to talk to IRL friends if available when feeling like that because I feel pretty powerless to help you anonymously through the internet

[Alisae]

Like the past few days have just been like this

[Alisae]

What RL friends
I’m basically alone

[Titus]

What RL friends
I’m basically alone

Echoing Krazy. Help is available and it does get better. I used to be the same.

[Alisae]

I don’t have a phone because the fucking piece of shit doesn’t even work anymore
I basically just now lost my love interest because I realized that she was basically using me and she didn’t care about me at all which hurts because whenever I think about this person my heart just wants me to love them but I know I’m just going to get hurt. And this sucks because she was the only person who I felt like was actually able to empower me to make my own life better.
Playing this stupid fucking mmo sucks its the samething everyday with no result and I can’t sell anything because I just happen to always get screwed by RNG
I don’t even know why I wake up I just wanna just stay in bed and sleep

[Alisae]

OH JUST GO GET HELP

[Alisae]

YEAH IF I WAS ABLE TO ACTUALLY GO GET HELP THEN I WOULDN’T BE IN THIS FUCKING POSITION

[Titus]

YEAH IF I WAS ABLE TO ACTUALLY GO GET HELP THEN I WOULDN’T BE IN THIS FUCKING POSITION

*hug* Well, I'll pray for you. I can tell you it gets better though.

[Alisae]

and I can also tell myself that eventually I’ll just be done with it and either OD on sleeping pills or give into the impulse of wanting to cut myself or jump into an incoming train

[Alisae]

Literally every day for the past week has been “maybe I should try slicing my stomach open”

[Alisae]

Do you know how hard it is to resist that urge

[Alisae]

Everyday I tell myself that I hate my life
I even say it outloud as an IMPULSE