In post 59, RadiantCowbells wrote:The fact that everything I said before I called you scum was facetious is reasonably obvious and I think if you stop for a second and think about my posting it's obvious that I wasn't angry at all.
I don't think it's unreasonable for me to want to quit when Harambey harassed the shit out of me in the postgame of our last game to the point that other players and the mod had to step in and he replaced into this game and continued to harass me. I joined because Amrock was here, I asked my friends to join, then Harambey comes back in and starts being an ass towards me again. I don't care about the rest of the game.
I don't want to replace out because I asked my friends to join but the alternative is for me to just force of will everyone into treating Harambey like a nonentity and that will make him rage and make this game toxic for everyone.
If Harambey had joined normally I would have had him WOTMed obviously but I didn't get that choice because of the way the game worked out.
One of us should leave this game and since I probably can't get Ausuka to WOTM him, this is the next best choice.
First things first, I saw Ausuka just replaced you out of this game. If that is because of me then I honestly apologize for it. I would have liked to play a fun game with you for once but it just wasn't to be this time...
- I could tell from those posts that you weren't angry and I posted likewise. As I said before, the sole reason that I didn't want you as my Chancellor this round is because I simply didn't like the way you posted. Vij also said that, btw.
- That I harassed you post-game in the previous game, I admit that. That I replaced in this game to annoy you further, is not true. I replaced in into this game because I saw Ausuka saying somewhere (I think in Site Chat) that Ausuka needed a replacement for Mulch, so I joined this game.
I did not have the intention to harass you with any of the posts I made so far in this game and if it sounded like I did have that intention, I am sorry for that but honestly, I can't really do much about that either. It's just the way I am as a person so I think the two of us just don't get together very well.
The final thing I will say about this is, that I found it very hard to make these posts. I'm proud of myself that I managed to keep myself in control and don't rage at you or anyone else. I'll tell you what I think you may know, I also PM'ed Ausuka in which I said that I wanted Ausuka to keep an eye on what you would say post-game if you indeed replaced out of this game, because I want to avoid such scenario's to happen again.
It's hard to describe but I have tough feelings here. When you reacted to my posts saying things like what you said here about me, I felt pretty uncomfortable and anxious. I was afraid of how you would react to what I would say - which is also why I sent Ausuka a PM. I really was afraid to make posts in this thread about what you said because I was afraid of how you would respond to that.
I am open to talk about this with you after this game but only if you want that too.