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Post #33 (isolation #11) » Wed Mar 01, 2023 6:01 pm
Postby Alisae »
Yo, listen up here's a story
About a little guy
That lives in a blue world
And all day and all night
And everything he sees is just blue
Like him inside and outside
Blue his house
With a blue little window
And a blue corvette
And everything is blue for him
And himself and everybody around
Cause he ain't got nobody to listen to
:coldface: :coldface: I'M BLUE :coldface: :coldface:
I WILL FEED
I WILL DIE
I WILL FEED
I WILL DIE
I WILL FEED
I WILL DIE
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Post #43 (isolation #16) » Wed Mar 01, 2023 6:21 pm
Postby Alisae »
Okay!
General warning though, this is the kind of stuff that will sent you off on an extraterrestrial journey. You might end up finding yourself in another galaxy
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Post #52 (isolation #21) » Wed Mar 01, 2023 6:51 pm
Postby Alisae »
In post 50, Lady Lambdadelta wrote:
I don't knyow why im being like this this game but fuck it I'm gonna have fun being all cringe and embarassing and letting parts of me that would cause me shame out because peiple can judge me don't i deserve judgement for being weird and freakish?
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Post #62 (isolation #24) » Wed Mar 01, 2023 7:40 pm
Postby Alisae »
In post 58, Lady Lambdadelta wrote:
I find things that bring me joy but i can only enjoy them in private because shame shame shame shame shame.
I feel this way about topics I feel like are taboo.
I once accidentally pasted something on my clip board that I would consider taboo and like some people didn't seem to care but there are still some in that community that slander me behind my back and bring that up
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Post #64 (isolation #25) » Wed Mar 01, 2023 7:43 pm
Postby Alisae »
I feel like a broken person as well but I think we're not all perfect and we're just tryna do our best and at the end of the day we're all people with our own struggles
In post 64, Alisae wrote:
I feel like a broken person as well but I think we're not all perfect and we're just tryna do our best and at the end of the day we're all people with our own struggles
Spoiler: not game thoughts
i feel you on that but i literally used to be part of the furry community in newfoundland had furries for friends all over and went to parties with them, slept with them, you know just... casual furry things and yet i would constantly say "not a furry tho" because i was too ashamed to interalize it with a GROUP OF PEOPLE FOR WHOM THAT IS THE WHOLE IDENTIFYING ASPECT.
like who the fuck are we anyway and why can't we just let GO of this senseless idea that we have to be liked or considered in control
do you know what i hear people tell me all the time?
they tell me how they view me as having everything all together, because i was able to accomplish so much in terms of my goals and i hold myself publicly so so so well
but in truth i'm just living a nightmare scraping for survival every day. i never stopped being that kid my parents beat fear into. i'm not in control i'm just better in crisis than anyone i've known ever. it's like all the levers get pulled and everythign turns off and suddenly this massive burst of competence comes out.
i've helped save my friends from psychiatric holds that would have ended their freedom and agency on multiple occasions by walking them through how to attack the system that is holding them, survive and play their way out. if you had asked me prior to that moment what to do, or even now i really don't know but then someone's in danger?
click. it's time to shed all the outer layers that let me pretend to be human or normal or something worth loving and be the Weapon i was raised to be for the benefit of others. gotta save them.
and even discussing THAT is shameful to me. i literally saved my friends' life more or less and i felt nothing. no joy no jubilation no pride just that i had completed my job and i should be ashamed for having acted that way.
i have a plushie dog that i cuddle her name is penny she's my trauma doggie, because when my PTSD makes me shake so badly that i think someone's coming to kill me i hug her and things feel more real again.
but i'm ashamed to admit i have or need that because normal people don't need those crtuches and don't have ptsd flashbacks and don't rely on childish tools like stuffies.
that's how my brain thinks. it denies me everything.
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Post #99 (isolation #31) » Thu Mar 02, 2023 4:29 am
Postby Alisae »
I need to go to sleep goodnight you memester
I’m a villager this game so if you could generate some gameplay for me while I sleep that would be great
Looking forward to reading what happens and not posting!!!
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Post #145 (isolation #39) » Thu Mar 02, 2023 1:27 pm
Postby Alisae »
I like to lurk now actually tbh.
People are likely to get distracted on other things and it allows me to remove myself from the situation and try to figure out what is going on from an outside perspective. I like to play villager nowadays by responding to the events that happen in thread. I think there is a lot of power in playing from behind because you're reading how everything is playing out.
It just sucks because I want people to post more...I actually like reading 10+ pages of new content, mostly because I know how to phase through it
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Post #252 (isolation #50) » Fri Mar 03, 2023 7:37 am
Postby Alisae »
In post 185, Pink Ball wrote:
Stephen is trying to justify his RVS vote on me calling my reads fake, with the intention of parking his vote and not really contributing to the game. You can call anyone here awkward, scummy, etc, but that's having an actual scum agenda
This is where I think your interactions with the player really start.
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Post #253 (isolation #51) » Fri Mar 03, 2023 7:45 am
Postby Alisae »
I think before that post Stephen isn't really doing anything to try to convince other players and you're the first person to start really pushing the read.
I intrepret Stephen's fake read post as basically the same thing as just repeating that someone is a wolf and hoping that they die. Not really productive and aimed to probably poke @ you if anything I think. It's pretty easy to read it as antagonistic I think since I don't see the purpose behind what he is doing as something that's trying to advance the game. If anything, you're probably the player that wants to advance the game most out of this interaction but that doesn't necessarily mean town here
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Post #260 (isolation #54) » Fri Mar 03, 2023 7:52 am
Postby Alisae »
I just like page 50 day ones because it means that people are playing and the gamestate is easier to read.
Honestly right now it feels like the mafia game hasn't really started yet and people haven't yet managed to dip their toes into the water and get them wet