I really need to sit down and think about how I played this game. I'm hella happy I won, don't get me wrong, this's been a large part of my life the last two months. Looking back though, I find myself disgusted by my own behaviour at times. I signed up planning to play up a character role, as doing so is really where the immersion kicks in, but what I got out of it is that that Toxi's sleazy, slimy side's more akin to a part of my real self than I'd like to admit. Just, ugh, reading through some sections of my Confessional makes me sick, I acted self-righteous and childish, it's just eugdfd. Jal was completely spot on with his PMs to me, as much as I denied/later played up that it was just a ploy to see where his head was at at the time. -Especially- after the Snakes boot, I think. I completely take back the bullshit I spewed over my Voting Confessional, Snakes is leagues ahead of me in terms of the social game. The moment I was handed that Idol was the moment I became a delusional fool drunk on power, and I think I needed the F9 flip to sober me up, I was n a s t y .