In post 2122, Titus wrote:*gasp* Because I'm actually taking your advice on listening to people, I'm being careful now. *sigh*
okay. I am going to level with you in a very very big way.
the reason why are you pulling on the heartstrings is that I empathize with feeling like there is a double standard applied to you and not any1 else. i very much feel like that I feel like it happens to me all of the time. team!mafia is a huge example of that, abr and greyice both made posts that are the definition of personal attack in the nightless game and tammy called me a piece of shit in the s&v which I wasn't even in cos bulba messed up some very key things when he was relaying what I was saying and was anything done about it? no! nothing. nada. zilch. metal sonic called me a bitch and was trying to spread misinformation about my personal life and I finally reported it, the only report I have ever made. was anything done about it? not until I pestered the mods and the only thing that happened to him was a slap on the wrist and told "leave mollie alone". it wasn't the calling me a bitch that got to me its the misinformation about my personal life that did cos I feel like my personal life shld be off the fucking table.
I have been called a cunt so much that i was starting to think it was my real name. sometimes it hurts my feelings it really depends on who it is like if mastina or kuribo called me a cunt it wld devastate me. sometimes I probs deserve it so I don't let it bother me that much. there are sometimes things that are said that REALLY hurt my feelings that other pple don't understand. like I bet over 90% of the players in this game read mine and psychlone exchanges and think "psychlone is a saint and mollie is a bitch" cos they don't know the context of what they said to me. it was very hurtful and inflammatory. when I read it I burst into tears and cos I was hurt and angry I lashed out. I am more emotional these days cos I am having to accept the reality that I have to give up a career that I love, was very good at and got paid well for it. I am trying to contain it and for the most part I have but like I said certain pple can say things and it just really hurts.
and good lord if I misread some1, pple go berserk. bro had 5 votes on him 1 time but I say, "I think bro might be scum" and good lord he gets hysterical and he runs around the thread ranting and raging and screaming I am scum I mean you wld think that I had handcrated the zombie apocalypse or something. its like that with a lot of pple and it has been happening more frequently and I am not sure what to do about it. other pple don't seem to have that kind of pressure and sometimes I feel like it is unfair.
so I understand where you are coming from I really do. so I am trying to figure you out but it isn't easy! I agree with a lot of what seiko says cos there are some things that I have noticed too. I don't think the majority of pple are voting you cos of policy I think most find you genuinely scummy, some just want to lynch whoever as long as it isn't them and some just want the day to end. so i think your interpretation of the wagon on you is wrong. and as I type out this post 1 of the biggest things I am feeling about your play in this game is I am not seeing the earnestness in scumhunting from you that I wld expect when you are being run up. your push on seiko is like the worst in the world and the reasons you have for scumreading them are horseshit. sorry but they are.
I have defo seen improvements in your play but you still have a long way to go and so do I! its just gonna take time to for it to integrate. and I really hope that you are town, I WANT you to be town cos it wld be pretty embarrassing if I just spent all this time talking to scum.
