In post 1127, Infinity 324 wrote:To elaborate on this, mastin seems very calm and confident this game. She does seem to be lost, she's not changing reads a lot, she's not rambling, but she seems to have a good handle on it. Not everything in the flowchart pointed to her!scum, but more of it does than not.
Well honestly the reason I feel this calm and confident is because it still kinda feels like, "we're almost in the RVS", stage of the game. As in, yeah, we're out of it. We're past the RVS. But it feels like we're
just
past it. It feels like the game hasn't "really" begun, so to speak. So my reads aren't evolving as much as they would in a faster-paced game, because we're...not actually moving fast. At least it doesn't feel like we are.
The game feels stagnant. The game feels stale. The game itself feels like it's unmoving. Like very little is being done. And when the game itself feels that way...well, I have an empathetic viewpoint of the game. Regardless of my alignment (though I guess moreso as town than scum), I "become what the game deems needed". And right now, I don't really feel needed...anywhere. I don't feel like I actually need to do anything. So I'll sit back, give some commentary here and there, and mostly just note things I think may be important, commenting on what I feel like commenting on.
Which means I have to wonder where you got the idea I wasn't rambling, because that's basically the majority of what I've done? I know I certainly haven't given much game content. Well, there's been content, but not, "pushy casey" content. More, "raising points as I go, in the background" content, and even there, it's mostly, "...because?".
Butyeah. I know we've got 50 pages of game content here. But it feels like we're still in the same zone we were at the time I came in, on page 18. So in spite of there being 35 or so extra pages, the game hasn't actually changed, and as a result...neither have I. Not quite sure how to word this exactly. I just don't feel like there's been much of anything which was actually important happening. I kinda got excited, got hyped, when Nacho replaced in, but while he's posted stuff, he's clearly not yet in his stride (he's like...doing warmups in preparation for hitting his running form), and while TWIE is town, he's not exactly someone who contributes the most in townbloc discussions. Which mostly leaves Desperado and Heartless. Desperado's reads clash with mine and I don't think we have a common ground there, and Heartless is just...being weird. I've said I'll trust them. I've said I'll give them time to reaffirm they're town. But they're not the beacon of towniness I know they can be, which would allow me to easily trade off ideas with them in a back-and-forth.
Basically what I'm saying is that this game needs a jump of energy, I suppose. I don't know how to give it one. I could try and force it. But it'd feel unnatural. And it'd put me under a lot of stress which I'm not sure I can handle right now. And I'm not sure how much I could maintain it, especially during a time where I'm V/LA. Which is why I'm mostly just kinda...waiting for something to change.