That’s great man. I don't smoke at all any more really, not because I suddenly started disliking it or anything, but I lost connections to get it and kind of just got out of the habit. I'm holding out for it to be legal here so I can just have it and use it occasionally like a normal person instead of feeling like a fucking criminal for enjoying it.In post 381, Alisae wrote:Mid Jan of this year tbh.In post 370, Lil Uzi Vert wrote:Since when did you start smoking weed?In post 367, Alisae wrote:Alright I’ma go make some food and get high and then come back when I’m stoned I wanna have more fun before town decides to lollynch me
I used it as a way of dealing with stress.
Then I realized it worked and then wondered if it could help me have fun in mafia games again.
I came back to mafia trying it and I started to have fun.
So I kept smoking ever since and enjoy mafia more.
If I realize that if I just try to enjoy mafia.
The only thing that truely stops me from having fun in mafia is randing scum because I try so hard to win that it becomes stressful and makes me panic and not enjoy the game anymore.
I actually hate playing scum, its legit never fun because for someone like me, who has a lot of issues making sure that I have to be liked all of the time, when I get wagoned like this I lose my fucking mind.
So I only play to have fun now.
But I'll still vote and want to lynch nero cain in every single game I play with him because he's not fun and he's bad.
When I first started smoking I was a senior in high school, had already been accepted to my college of choice and didn't have a care in the world. Smoking made me feel fantastic because it would give me a kind of internal, introspective perspective on myself and my feelings, and I could just sit back and do nothing (or do the things I enjoyed) and feel totally carefree and fantastic, it sort of enhanced the feelings I already had in life. I smoked on and off throughout college, and loved being active and productive while smoking, working out, cleaning, going for walks, etc. I did very well in school and it didn't get in the way of my grades or success, once again enhancing my already mostly good feelings.
Then graduation started coming closer, and I finally left school, and suddenly I was full of self doubt about the future and where I was going and what I was doing with my life, and smoking would bring all these feelings to the front of my mind and give me terrible anxiety. It was worse if I was around people, because I couldn't turn these anxious thoughts off and couldn't socialize or talk to people because I was so busy going over every aspect of my life that needed improvement.
Weed is an amazing thing, capable of really wonderful effects, and it affects everyone differently, but its main psychological effect for a lot of people is a very introspective mental state that can be fantastic if you're in a good place in life, or very bad if you're not too happy with certain things. This is all from personal experience though!