I don't know, spiffeh, that's what I'm trying to find out. I have a tendency to scumread people who try to push me to do more than I'm doing when I'm already on the verge of a meltdown about failing to live up to expectations, which is a large part of why I lynched you in The Odds. I'm trying not to do that to you again here even though you voted me pretty much as soon as I explained that I've been less present due to health stuff.
The way Wisdom was talking to me at the end of day 2 when using language hurt, pushing me to vote for the mislynch...i'm not going to say the comparison because it's over the top even though it's 100% true and i don't know how to explain it to someone who doesn't have my disability. i don't know how to words it. It felt kind of
imperius curselike.
But it's too...close to home...for me to see if interacting with me this way is because people are scum or because they don't realise what's happening. I feel like other people have been casting out feelers in recent pages. Expedience has been backing off which is interesting (I don't mean scummy interesting I just mean it's something that i've noticed and it's a puzzle piece that I don't know where it fits yet). Players that i'm 99% sure are town (Gorkington, but also I think anti and ranger, doing this off the top of my head) are giving me space because they realise that boxing me into a corner is a bad way to figure out my alignment.
Even trying to talk about this is making my connection to language feel all tenuous. I think this is a true thing that's happening but talking about it is too hard.
pedit: no wisdom, that's not what i'm saying. stop trying to put words into my mouth. I think that expedience is trying to tie me to phantom. i think that if expedience is scum, then phantom is more likely to also be scum. that means i want to lynch expedience first if i'm lynching in [expedience, phantom], because Expedience scum flip tells me something about Phantom but Phantom scum flip doesn't tell me something about Expedience (Expedience could be town and right about his reads in that instance).
--P