In post 1597, RadiantCowbells wrote:I'm pretty sure that Mastina knows they fucked up this game royally and rubbing it in their faces isn't going to help with anything
Like I said.
Silence from me is veeeeeeeeeeeeeery telling.
You don't see me silent in games where I feel the hate is unwarranted--I will talk along plenty. I will keep speaking. I will weigh in. I will continuously give my feedback and argue my stances even after my death, and well into the postgame.
If I feel
uncomfortable
talking (and while there are other ways to be uncomfortable, fucking up is a reliably large trigger of being that way), then...I don't. I felt uncomfortable in this game's dead thread. I feel uncomfortable in this postgame. I have a job, a duty, to provide postgame commentary and feedback--disappearing would be a final act of awfulness. So I have to talk, I have to give feedback, and I have to try and help, because it would be negligence for me not to. Sure as fuck doesn't make it easier though knowing it's an obligation. Because it's an uncomfortable environment to be in.
"Rubbing it in" in an environment outside of a game thread (postgame, dead thread, elsewhere on the site, game I'm not even a player in) is a good way to make me avoid you, for a myriad of reasons. (Guilt, not wanting to deal with the very strong signs of hostility, etc.)
It is undeniable that there were fuck-ups in my play.
I wouldn't argue it was as bad as has been painted. I could even argue in defense of many things. I feel like explaining the theory behind my play would be something I should do, both from a teaching perspective and a matter of personal pride--but I think (rather than feel) it would if I tried just be a bad idea which is why I don't think I actually will.
Basically, you're more right than not-right in your statement. And even the parts which aren't right aren't exactly wrong, either.
I performed below optimal.
Focusing on that is not, however, something I'd say is healthy.
I'm a firm believer in positive reinforcement--focusing on emphasizing the good, to amplify and improve it.
Not in making people feel shittier than they already feel.